Aww golly thanks! :) Sorry I’ve been so absent over here… gosh I should try to be better about that.
Just gonna drop in here real quick to let you all know that I’m headed to central Utah for a quick vacation with one of my best friends. She’s one of those “outdoorsy” types, and we’re going to spend a lot of time hiking, and holy shit, we might even camp for a night. I am not a very good camper, but I’m looking forward to the possibility… hah, which is weird.
But yeah she’s got the whole trip planned out, including where we’re gonna go, what we’re gonna do, and even where we’re gonna eat, which is actually a huge load off my mind and is going to be super helpful and gosh gosh gosh I’m just so excited :)
I’m gonna try to take a lot of pictures and hopefully use the trip as another source of motivation and reset my brain into a healthier place (I’m still not eating as much as I should be, so maybe some different physical activity/fresh air will help that).
See you all when I get back! :)
Oh hello rebloggers and new followers. I see you are enjoying this post. I promise I’ll try to be funny again real soon. :D
it’s been super hard finding the motivation and the desire to actually get out and do anything lately. i was on the rag for a week (seriously, my period lasts longer than anyone else i know and I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT) which didn’t help, but even now i just kind of want to curl up in a ball and not go anywhere or see anybody or do anything.
my body is doing that thing again where it just refuses to accept food, no matter what it is i offer it. i’ll take two or three bites of something and then just… not want it anymore, start feeling kind of sick. i mean i guess it’s good because it’s restricting my calorie intake and since i haven’t been doing a whole lot of exercising it’s balancing that out, but… it’s super not healthy to just not eat food ever. last time this happened i started drinking those Boost shakes, kind of like Ensure, just to keep my intake up to keep from passing out/completely dying. i know it’s not healthy but… i’m kind of at a loss for what to do about it :\
the interview i felt really good about was two weeks ago yesterday, and i haven’t heard a single thing back from that place. no e-mail, no phone call, nothing. i did get a call from another place i applied to though (like 3 weeks after i submitted an application), so i’m going to call them back today. it sucks because i was so sure that other opportunity was going to be a really good fit, and they seemed to really like me; i’m kind of surprised that i didn’t even get a rejection notice or anything. that seems kind of uncool :\
whoops sorry for being depressing i’m gonna go now.
I seem to have broken my couch sleeping cycle, which is doing wonders for my back.
I haven’t been keeping up with the running unfortunately, because of my back.
I have been able to get out just about every other day for a walk or a nature hike for roughly an hour every time, because I’m still trying to do this shit the right way.
I haven’t yet had a call back from any potential employers which is kind of disconcerting and sad because I was almost sure the only job I’ve actually interviewed for so far was pretty much a perfect fit for me. It’s been a little over a week since the interview, and I’m kind of scared at this point to contact them again. I don’t want to seem pushy, but at the same time… I’d really like to have a job right now.
I have a massage today which is going to be just splendid and I can’t wait for that. Then afterwards I think I’m going to go buy a new sketchbook and go sit at the beach and draw stupid little cartoon characters. I think that’s a good plan.
This is rough. I had a pretty bad day yesterday in terms of just about everything, and I really feel like just being a shut-in today. There is next to nothing food-wise in this house (we were trying to empty the fridge before we went grocery shopping because we just got a new fridge). So my options are like… baby carrots and cold-brew coffee until my mom gets home at 6 with groceries. And that just ain’t healthy or delicious.
I’m gonna try to make up for being a lazyass by doing some arms today. I finally unpacked my 5lb walking weights so there’s really no excuse. Maybe I’ll learn how to do a real squat, too. The last time I did them was when my best friend was trying to be my personal trainer for her kinesiology class, and then I couldn’t really walk for the next week because my muscles were completely shocked.
Well it’s on my fitblr now, so I guess I HAVE to do it. *grump*